why am i awake?

So....I have TONS of homework to do. But instead, I'm playing around on facebook. Logic? absent.
Bones made me sad tonight. Maybe that is why I'm not working. Eh. Oh well.
So, other stuff. The future looms before me. I wonder what I will be doing? or where I will be going? I especially wonder how everything is going to play out in the next few months. I'm trying to make decisions regarding time, and its hard. I know I should probably get a job as soon as school is out, but that means I wont be able to see the baby when she arrives. Mom, Catey, and the rest really want me to be there - but I know they were planning on a 2 - 3 week stay. I know they will need the help. I know it will be one of my last chances ot spend time with the kids. But how can I do that if I need a job? And how am I going to pay ANY bills? There are so many things I need to do to get things started, but it seems like I just don't have the time or the energy. I cant wait for a break-but should I even take one? And do I need more schooling? I still haven't been officially invited anywhere...and I know before I will be I have to go get a physical (i hate dr's offices!)
I guess there are just many things that I am unsure of right now. Hopefully some of them will clear up. I'm also worried about some of my friends, and I don't know how to approach them with my concerns. I really need to pray that I can be so in tune with the Spirit that I will know what to do and when to do it...but until then I just feel...unsettled...