its raining...

so i finally used my gift card for a free one-hour massage at massage envy today. i got it for christmas from my stu co officers 2 years ago (ok - well 2 christmases anyway...wow - how do you pluralize christmas???) gee i'm glad there was no expiration date! it was pretty good. relaxing. they play that soft naturey music and lucky for me it was raining outside, so that added to the ambience. however, sometimes i felt like she just didn't quite finish getting the knots out. i love metaphors, so here's one for ya: massages are like haunted houses. you have to do some serious work to 'exercise the demons' so-to-speak. sometimes you just do enough to piss them off. same with muscles. you have to do some SERIOUS work to work out the knots, and if that work isn't completed then you've really just aggravated the muscle. we shall see - hopefully i'll still feel ok in an hour.

sadness though...i went camping a couple of weeks ago and a REALLY BAD picture was taken of me. i have worked to make sure that picture never sees the light of day, but it was posted to photobucket today and now the whole world can view. i don't think people quite understand. some people are gorgeous and some people aren't. sometimes it doesn't matter either way because some people are photogenic and others aren't (this can happen to people of both categories). so when you are neither gorgeous nor photogenic, you work real hard to pass for decent, and when a bad pic is taken, you just want it erased! its even worse when people say 'no, its a good picture, you look fine.' you konw what that means don't you? it means that every second of every day you look that nasty. frankly that makes me feel like putting a paper bag over my head every time i go out in public. as long as i don't have to see unflattering pictures of myself, then i don't think i look that bad which gives me more confidence in public, which i like. oh well, we can't have it all.

so i need to figure out how to post pics within a blog. that would be fun.

on a good note...i've been getting some good hang time with friends lately. yay for that! i'm so not used to it, i haven't been able to hang out like this in at least 2 years...crazy!